I'm in deep s***
As stated...
Thursday, July 15, 2004
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Training Day
I was, still is, a bit nervous about this new job that I have and I am not quite sure if I'm going to last that long there. I don't know really. It's just maybe because I just recently resigned from my previous job and I am not "that ready" to start a new one or maybe I just felt that I haven't got enough time to really feel what's it like to be jobless. It's not that I am not happy that I do have a new job now, come to think of it, there's a lot out there who doesn't have one, right? So what's I'm complaining about then? Maybe there's a lot going on in my mind right now and I don't think that my brain or system for that matter is fast enough to process all those thoughts. Oh, I don't know. I'm kind of confuse or something but as the saying goes, "Life must go on," so I have to go on then and see if this new job would actually work for me. D***!!!
The training started yesterday and I still have to found out yet if this is the "one" I've been looking for. Sometimes I do get intimidated with the other trainees because unlike me they already have had a couple of experience before. I even felt like an idiot at times and it's kind of frustrating. It totally sucks. I know I should not be acting like this but I don't really know why I act or feel that way. My confidence is slowly draining and I even got scared if our training is going to ask me a question and I wouldn't be able to give the right answer. Duh, you may say that, hey you're already a professional and shouldn't be acting like that, but I just can't help it. The training will last for 6 weeks or more and I am praying (hard, really hard) that I'll be gaining my confidence back and say bye to this silly new old me.
I was, still is, a bit nervous about this new job that I have and I am not quite sure if I'm going to last that long there. I don't know really. It's just maybe because I just recently resigned from my previous job and I am not "that ready" to start a new one or maybe I just felt that I haven't got enough time to really feel what's it like to be jobless. It's not that I am not happy that I do have a new job now, come to think of it, there's a lot out there who doesn't have one, right? So what's I'm complaining about then? Maybe there's a lot going on in my mind right now and I don't think that my brain or system for that matter is fast enough to process all those thoughts. Oh, I don't know. I'm kind of confuse or something but as the saying goes, "Life must go on," so I have to go on then and see if this new job would actually work for me. D***!!!
The training started yesterday and I still have to found out yet if this is the "one" I've been looking for. Sometimes I do get intimidated with the other trainees because unlike me they already have had a couple of experience before. I even felt like an idiot at times and it's kind of frustrating. It totally sucks. I know I should not be acting like this but I don't really know why I act or feel that way. My confidence is slowly draining and I even got scared if our training is going to ask me a question and I wouldn't be able to give the right answer. Duh, you may say that, hey you're already a professional and shouldn't be acting like that, but I just can't help it. The training will last for 6 weeks or more and I am praying (hard, really hard) that I'll be gaining my confidence back and say bye to this silly new old me.
Sunday, July 11, 2004
Last Week
Last week I had several interviews and job offers. Finally, I already accepted one offer. The pay is not that big. Actually, it's a hundred lower than my previous job but the thing is, with this one, I'll be able to apply what I sutudied in college. I hope so. Hehehe.
I also spend 3 days, from Thursday to Saturday, with my mom at the Pan Pacific Hotel. Though we didn't have the chance to talk a lot due to several meetings and gatherings she had to attend, just by seeing her is more than enough. Oh I miss my 3 bros, my sister and my Dad. The last time I saw them was last Holy week. It's really hard to live away from your family.
Last week I had several interviews and job offers. Finally, I already accepted one offer. The pay is not that big. Actually, it's a hundred lower than my previous job but the thing is, with this one, I'll be able to apply what I sutudied in college. I hope so. Hehehe.
I also spend 3 days, from Thursday to Saturday, with my mom at the Pan Pacific Hotel. Though we didn't have the chance to talk a lot due to several meetings and gatherings she had to attend, just by seeing her is more than enough. Oh I miss my 3 bros, my sister and my Dad. The last time I saw them was last Holy week. It's really hard to live away from your family.
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